“Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 3:13-14 KJV
Knocking on my birthday eve having many thoughts and pondering…
Sitting in my car in the park watching the Brandywine River water roll in front of me as I did the Virginia Beach waves last week while on vacation – can’t explain much and I can’t answer questions about my future because outright I just don’t understand or even know what’s next.
At this moment I can say I’m amazed at the life I’ve lived so far and wondering what’s next. I’m wondering what’s the “master plan?”
You see, I know I’ve done some things wrong, but I also think I’ve done a few things right. (Funny, how we hold tight at times to the wrong much closer than the right.)
Today though, I’ve decided two things:
1. That I’m going to faintly assess the wrong, but be grateful for the right.
2. I’m going to continue to press.
God has allowed some AMAZING FEATS in my life that others only dream. He has allowed visions pictured in my mind to develop fully. Often I’ve felt like a “Joseph” like character. I’ve dreamt up some crazy stuff that seemed impossible that eventually came to pass. Yeah, unlike Joseph I haven’t always been upstanding and righteous, but I’ve tried and am still trying.
From ending up an entrepreneur, to becoming a homeowner, to becoming a published author, to even having opportunity to teach what little I know by bringing forth a Word or two in front of folk – God has shown Himself faithful. Also through the Alpha and Omega and His plot, I have become a decent facilitator, have presented in national forums more than once, and have grown successful youth and parent programs. Currently, He also aids in me supporting my mom, my nephew and a grandniece in various ways.
Sometimes frustrated, sometimes tired – often I wonder when a few other desires of my heart I’ve envisioned will be fulfilled. Only God knows…
I feel like God is telling me – yeah I’ve done those things through you but – KEEP PRESSING! Seems as though God still has some feats to unfold. Trust me, I still have some BIG visions!
The message is – I can’t grow tired, I can’t give up, I’ve got to keep pressing! You see there’s still things He’s shown that haven’t come to pass yet. My Joseph like life isn’t over, There’s more…
“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.”
Jeremiah 29:11 KJV
I guess what I’m trying to say is best said through the Message Bible version of my opening verse-
“I’m not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don’t get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I’ve got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I’m off and running, and I’m not turning back.”
Philippians 3:12-14 MSG
I’m gonna keep pressing!
My birthday request- Please keep praying for me and encouraging me to do so. 😃
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