Use me by Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir.
“A man’s gift maketh room for him, and bringeth him before great men.”
Proverbs 18:16 KJV
Before I give my testimony and prayer request…Take a moment to pause. Breathe in and out slowly and deeply four or five times.
Now, take one last breath in and out and then say/pray to yourself –
God you have uniquely made and given me gifts and talents. Please make me be responsible and fully aware – for we know to whom much is given, much is required. Help me to know how best to serve others. Please help me to refine and master all that is within my power. God make room for me to execute where most effective. Before and after revelation, I will be careful to give you all the glory, honor, and praise. Amen
Next – Pause for a while, wait and listen. I’m sure you have a testimony… Now read mine.
I’ve prayed the above prayer many times. I’ve definitely prayed it when I wasn’t as sure as folks thought I was – which is most days.
Although this statement doesn’t sound humble, I admit that God has blessed me with many gifts and talents. Smile, I know there’s even more to uncover and other ways I can grow spiritually. I fully recognize and attempt to glorify Him and be guided when to utilize each.
For example – as a child and after accepting Christ I always relied on my ability to carry a tune – in other words sing. I sang in the youth and young adult choirs. As a young adult in my early/late 20’s at Mount Zion UAME Church, there weren’t many members and I WAS the choir some days – me and a boom box with accompany tapes. Pastors Rev. Galloway and then Rev. Lampkins requested I sing often. I thought that was my only contribution. I thought that was the extent of ministry I could offer. I thought that was it. I’m not even a great singer. I think I am okay.
I decided one year to attend Vacation Bible School. My cousin Ronetta taught the adult class that year on the topic of gifts and talents. It expanded my view. God then put things in motion and ordered my steps. I’m not sure I followed His exact instructions, but I tried…
Later the church grew and I then was led to take what I knew secularly about youth programming and apply to youth ministry. (Actually, I sorta fell into youth ministry after the death of my cousin Janice who had started a small youth group with teens.) Soon the Lord blessed the church with a full fledged Youth Department – a well attended weekly teen bible study and praise dancers and we even had a praise rapper. Then “room was made” by God to create and lead what we called the Education Department which included Sunday School, Adult Sunday school, Vacation Bible School and all the previously mentioned efforts.
At the same time all this was happening – I had opportunity to be on the overall UAME Conference School Board and to help create curriculum for confirmation and to assist in training others.
Meanwhile – In the midst of all this God allowed me to become an author of a devotional book, I Give You Jesus, The Greatest Gift. I love to write and had been sending/emailing encouraging words to friends and family for years. Over 500 copies have been sold and I still give to folk when requested.
I was extremely busy. I think I and the great people God allowed me to work alongside were effective. Honestly, it had its very low and very high points. I learned and experienced much. There were some haters. There were some cheerleaders. Actually now that I look back – I think I started to walk in my own strength. I became burnt out. I was hurt and offended. It started to seem like I was constantly in a battle. Leadership changed at the church. I backed off. Somehow it all ended…it all ran its course. I questioned many things.
Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ. Phillipians 1:6
Remember I said I have some not so confident times? Well, I’m sorta coming out of a long one. Feeling not as useful, I started to wonder if where and when my gifts will have “room” made for them as the scripture states. I’m praying intently about what God wants next to pour out of me. How, when, where and with whom are questions that loom.
Pray for me…God is starting to make room again.
What has been key for me – I never fully backed away from God. I kept my core belief. I still studied and prayed. As the past chaplain of my sorority chapter I was asked occasionally to fill in or speak. Every once in a while someone would ask me to sing. I’d help my linesister who just finished her Master of Divinity when she would go in to minister at a nursing home for her internship. My partial obedience and willingness helped in those times to assure me I was still in God’s hand. (He told me in His Word that no one could pluck me out!)
After beginning to write again on a consistent basis and texting friends – one of my sorority sisters encouraged me to start this blog. I have totally been shocked by the response from those who read. God has folks in France and China viewing. I hear people saying – when you send messages it seems I needed that particular inspiration at that exact time.
Recently I was amazed to be asked to bring forth the “Word of Encouragement” on a prayer call for the Delaware Chapters of my sorority. We have pastors and preachers in the membership, but I was asked. It completely blew me away…
God seems to always make room if we are willing…I now ask – “What’s next God?” I’m still coming out of what I call “my funk!” I’m curious how God will continue this process.
Now my prayer request. Please pray along with me.
Lord, please let us recognize and walk in our gifts and talents bestowed by God. Help us with confidence to step into the areas and opportunities God has cleared. Erase doubt and allow us to enter those spaces knowing who and whose we are. Help us to be effective for Your glory. In the Mighty Name of Jesus we pray- Amen.