Oh me of little faith!

“And in the fourth watch of the night Jesus went unto them, walking on the sea. And when the disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were troubled, saying, It is a spirit; and they cried out for fear. But straightway Jesus spake unto them, saying, Be of good cheer; it is I; be not afraid. And Peter answered him and said, Lord, if it be thou, bid me come unto thee on the water. And he said, Come. And when Peter was come down out of the ship, he walked on the water, to go to Jesus. But when he saw the wind boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, saying, Lord, save me. And immediately Jesus stretched forth his hand, and caught him, and said unto him, O thou of little faith, wherefore didst thou doubt?” Matthew‬ ‭14:25-31‬ ‭KJV‬‬

Woke this morning and for some reason filled with doubt. Doubting many decisions I’ve made – like working for myself and owning my own business. Doubting accomplishments I’ve obtained and if I’m qualified for anything. I woke questioning my talent and gifts. Wondering if I’ve gone the right path. Pondering all of my “what if’s.” Everything feels difficult and complicated – turbulent.

I am such a “Peter” by nature.

I admit, I dream big. I have vast and deep goals. God speaks through His Word and demonstrates Himself and I’m ready to test it myself with exuberance. I knew a long time ago deep down I would have my own business. I prayed and ventured out in peace starting my business. I know and am confident I heard the command to, “Come.”

I often speak quickly, act and then in the midst of my great and grand schemes wonder how and why did I decide to go there. I start off believing, “Yes, this is where God would have me.” Then somewhere in the middle when things get a little turbulent start to doubt.

Despite how I feel at the moment, – and yes I recognize for me this will only be a moment because I’m working/encouraging myself as I write – God proves Himself in the scripture above. He’s reaching out to lift me and saying – “O thou of little faith, wherefore didst thou doubt?”

God is there to catch me in my doubt, lift me and encourage- just as He is doing right now.

For those who are also where I am at this time – I’m praying for us. I am interceding that our minds are renewed to walk in the confidence that faith brings. If God told us to “Come” then we need to walk knowing He is right there.